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Monday, December 13, 2004
Currently listening to: "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls
Current mood: not happy..
Fate is a weird thing. Death is a weird thing. It comes when its least expected. To detemine your fate, is inevitable yet impossible, because it comes when the least expected. It was fate, when Paul picked me up, whilst with Kissy. It was fate, when i got his call, asking about the basic deets, then suddenly that awkward feeling of confusion and that funny laugh of his shook the conversation when he was like "um uh.. oops i wanted your cousins number.. hehe" It was fate for Paul to find his true love. I feel so helpless. I feel so guilty for not being a good friend, attempting to call, letting us drift. All i can say is, Paul is now resting in peace, knowing that he was loved and cared for by all. That's the first and foremost thing everyone once. To love and be loved, in return. I hope you get through this baby girl, i know you will. You now have a guardian angel looking above you constantly forever now..
REST IN PEACE PAUL.THANH.NGUYEN 10/04/85 - 12/12/04
love always, your future distant cousiin in law - Nguyet Linh Ly.
Posted at 01:38 pm by linhE
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
At first i thought it was a prank...
Until i came home from work to look at my msn with 30% of everyone's nick being:
R.I.P
Paul Nguyen
[10/04/85 - 12/12/04]
I can't imagine how it'd be for her.. i am in a state of shock. i am in a state of shame. it's still registring through, because i don't know what to do now, or what i can do to make it better, if only i could just turn back time. This world is so fucking unfair, SO FUCKING UNFAIR... i hate it.
Posted at 11:18 pm by linhE
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Currently listening to: "Drive" by Incubus
Current mood: bored
My occupation:
* someone who has to nuture
* someone who has to work as hard as she needs to obtain the amount of money to support her habit
* someone who likes to bludges
* someone who has to listen
* someone who has to communicate
* all of the above
Okay, so this week has been scheduled to work 5 out of 7 days, and i can say i am tired, yet dissappointed. Mainly because being paid weekly, and the amount of hours you work, causes exhaustion and being on holidays, just makes you spend more and want more. So right now, i have so many things i want, and need. Firstly, my bedroom is still being under construction, after *insert number here* months. There's a big xmas pressie i want to get BB which will cost me a weeks' pay. Then there's the depression of the lack of minimal amount of items i have in my closet, which i need to bulk up for summer. These are the stupid random shit i think about before sleeping. And to obtain a social life, along with a work life, is just too much. But that will be gone, once BB leaves in approx. a week. The sad thing, i'm really worried because my rents are leaving overseas for two weeks, giving me the responsibility to look after the shop as well, and yardi yar.. meaning i'll be nigel for xmas and new years.. literally. House all to myself.. and i need to save up for the trip to QLD with the "couples". I'm kinda worried as well, because the fact that i'm going to be so busy these holidays, i have no time to sit on my ass and practice my designing skills, which i've learnt throughout this year. That includes FLASH on the last day of this last semester, which i kinda get the hang of.. but stressing because i know i will forget, and dIRECTOR and yardi yar... its suppose to be HOLIDAYS meaning relax and have fun. But no, i want the cha ching! Argh.
Posted at 01:28 pm by linhE
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Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Current mood: tired
Currently listening to: nothing
It takes about a week to get into a proper nice routine, and it takes about 2 days to get out of it. Fudge, i've become this person that sleeps during the day, works durin the afternoon/night, then goes out to the late morning... and then sleeeeeeeeeeeeps, and works, then goes out, and then sleeeeepsssssss, then work and then goes out. i kinda miss the.. sleep at 11pm, wake up @ 7am, don't waste a nice sunny day, and come home and chillax. argh, holidays so boring yet i need the cha ching. bling bling! yeaa ha~! hmm.. TIRED!
Posted at 12:18 pm by linhE
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
WORK
is boring and i can't stop complaining
and i cant wait til christmas til i come bak to sydney
Sydney is the shit.
Anyways, blah, nothing much is going on,
just at the office now waiting for classes,
for all the people around the world that
im not going to see,
Merry Christmas
and a Happy New Year!
Linh, i'll be seeing you soon and u better come out.
Posted at 05:59 pm by linhE
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
Currenlty listening to: "Lift Off" set by Johan Gieln
Current mood: hmm
The past few days, i've been really depressed, annoyed and very angry. It's funny how these emotions can add up to only one defining point of your day, and make you just crack in the middle of the street whilst on the phone in tears. I felt like i was a champagne bottle, that just been popped, somehow triggered by the most stupidest thing. Roaming the streets for what seemed forever, like a lost angry child tryin to find her way back home. To express my feelings, is just so complicated. I feel like, i'm this changed person. One that you can define as so cynical and angry at everyone around her, excluding BB and family. It seems that i've become this real itchbay, where i'll accept someone for who they are, yet criticise them badly. I hate bludgers. Yet, i should stop being so hipocritcal. So many aspirations, so little time. Why can't everyone stop being on their little islands, and swim to New York, where all the glamour and cha ching is.
Posted at 01:15 am by linhE
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