Just reached a loop hole. I feel depressed. I know the people around me, know that i go to the extremes with my emotions when it comes to my pms. 83 especially. But, you know, you can't help thinking, that's me i guess. TAfe yesterday was argh. I'm surprised i didn't get restless by like the 7th hour of it. Usually, i'd be slapping class mates and getting the shits, but i stayed straight to the end. By the time it was over, i can say TAFE is scary at night @ 7pm. Damn, iw ant day light savings to come back. As for other bullshit.. omg. I know i shouldn't stress myself, because its nothing. Its just annoying that i have to be this way, and i know i can control it, but i don't have enough power to control it enough. 83.. take me away.. please.

I really need to start designing huh, been draggin this shiznit for ages huh? Anyways, what did i learn yesterday..

Like wtf! I watched this movie last night, (flying daggers) and i heard it was all good and shit, but then igot heaps shitty becuaes it was fuckin gloosing the plot! The plot - 2 government soldiers have to find the leader of a gang "House of flying daggers" and find out a blind girl is working @ this brothel/geisha place. They believe she is the only key to the house of flying daggers. so they kidnap her and then decide to play a twisted fucked up game, where one of the govt. soldiers pretends to be someone else (since she is blind and cannot see) and saves her and escape. So they're running from the govt. and like all these govt. soldiers are after them trying to kill em and etc etc.. RA RA RA RA uno the dealio.. it gets all exciting and then wtf! The ending is so fucked up. In the end, everyone dies because there's a love triangle between the two govt. soldiers and the blind girl. There's more to it but i cbf explaining, but still LOST THE WHOLE FUCKIN PLOT. I sat there, going "yea yea they're gonna find the leader" but they dont.. its like.. so irrelevant. Anyways, hidden dragon rara is even more stupid, she commits suicide at the end for some reason. I don't get it. Chinese movies are like mad cause of the scenery and etc. but sometimes i think the storylines are like for ppl who understand the chinese tradition and are like fuckin deep wise thinkers or something. god damn. peace.

Holidays fucking suck, becuase i'm not doing anything.
I'm deprived of 83! Fuck.. we've both been working non-stop and our schedule clashes to a point where we only see each other for like 5minutes. The only time is hearing his voice and then its just argh.. i wanna bash the fuck out of you, because i want to be there listening and holding yu and not on the other side of the phone 30minutes away.
God damn i hate work. fucking work. work work work .

My parents are gullible. But i don't blame them because of their lack of english and the fact that they can't read clearly. My mum is pyschotic. We received a letter today, from some spanish company saying that we had won an international lottery of $600k+. I hadn't looked  @ the letter yet, but my dad went to a family friends place, who reads and can explain to them in cantonese the letter. He didn't know if it was real or not either.

So i read it. And i was like "yeah whatever man.. let my parents deal with it."
But then, i thought fuck.. they're fucking us over.

So i called them asked for the person listed in the letter.

"Hi, is Simon Lucas there please?"

So whats it like.. when your in the middle of lunch, and then your "shit feeling" come along.
I'm really confused as to whether i should eat first, and finish off my food or go to the toilet and chuck an itshay..

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