Sometimes i imagine how life would be like without BB. And i realised, it'd be hard. Reason because, although this relationship maybe be a habit, there's still that emotion there. It's kinda a sad story though, to be in a relationship out of habit. But to compare ourselves with other relationships, its amazing that we lasted nearly a year and two months. I wouldn't expect it to have gone this far. With my paranoia, of insecurities, of him not liking me enough, him not noticing me enough just proves my little efforts to keep him and make him mine. How i truly feel about BB, hardly gets unleashed. But i enjoy spending every minute with him. My interest in many things have dissappeared, and has focused on him. Because i suppose he's my main interest atm. It's sad in a way, but i guess BB can be classified as a form of escapism to me. He takes everything around me good or bad, away, and just makes me live the moment. That's why i think "I'm fallen, head over heels, i'm fallen in love with you. I'm fallen, and i can't get up.. don't wanna getup, because of love. "

Hello~! I know i said, i wouldn't be blogging, but i just wanted to let you people know about my beautiful infection-ous eye! It's so pretty! So pretty that i can't see! AT first i thought it was a mossie bite, as the swelling just made my eyelid pink, so it looked as if i had make up on, but was clueless on how to put the thing they call eye shadow. So as a week passed.. a bubble started to form. And i was like "Oh! What's this?! A PIMPLE!" Alright, so then comes the excessive pimple cream on my eye lid (even though your not suppose to put there) and voila~! I HAVE A MUTHER FUCKING BUBBLE! How fabulous! So then comes the paranoia. With bad influence of FHM, i thought i was growing a maggot on my eye lid! Because you know these little dots, can get ANYWHERE and can BREED and shit ANYWHERE. I repeat ANYWHERE! So after three days, i now have a fucking hideous bubble that's practiclly overlapping my eye, making me look partially angry which is the new age two face. So after visiting the doctor, he said i had an eye infection with a temperature. I have a pust growing under my eyelid, which is waiting to erupt. It's so beautiful isn't it? How, our bodies are like EARTH! And we have these little creatures, breeding and living on us. And if we decide to destroy EARTH, all we have to do, is pollute it with chemicals and toxins and destroy the ozone layer! Oh yes... i am in PAIN arrrrrrrrrr......... matey~!