Sometimes i imagine how life would be like without BB. And i realised, it'd be hard. Reason because, although this relationship maybe be a habit, there's still that emotion there. It's kinda a sad story though, to be in a relationship out of habit. But to compare ourselves with other relationships, its amazing that we lasted nearly a year and two months. I wouldn't expect it to have gone this far. With my paranoia, of insecurities, of him not liking me enough, him not noticing me enough just proves my little efforts to keep him and make him mine. How i truly feel about BB, hardly gets unleashed. But i enjoy spending every minute with him. My interest in many things have dissappeared, and has focused on him. Because i suppose he's my main interest atm. It's sad in a way, but i guess BB can be classified as a form of escapism to me. He takes everything around me good or bad, away, and just makes me live the moment. That's why i think "I'm fallen, head over heels, i'm fallen in love with you. I'm fallen, and i can't get up.. don't wanna getup, because of love. "