Currently listening to :"Affinity" by Hydra (or the other way around)
Current mood: nothing
Currently @ TAFE
So, my therapist told me to "Enjoy the void, that's where you find solitude is the best." Right now, i've been feeling a little.. nothing? I'm not my pedantic self, nor am i the analytical person i used to be. I've reached that point where, too much caring leads to nothing. A feeling of emptiness has overcome me, and made me see points of life in both ends, where i find very amusing yet frustrating at the same time, yet i don't seem to budge from my circle. So sitting here, contemplating about life or whether i should continue my work, gives me a minor anxiety attack(ok maybe less than minor). So what seems to be the cause of my little emotion? To be honest, relationships. I feel that i've reached that point. The point where you see both of you are so over it, but tend to put that little effort to be together. Don't get me wrong, but i guess its times like these, i wish i was single. Not the fact that i have that attachment, but i'm just so over the phase. The phase of caring over someone who doesn't seem to do the same, the phase where you put endless efforts to see that person, the phase where your feelings are considered weird (to put it in a nice way). Maybe i'm already broken, but its hidden under my cold, heartless face. So i'm a little upset atm, but i don't care cause right now.. i'm enjoying the void, because this is where i'm in my own circle, thinking about the things in life which should be prioritized (if that's a word lol), whcih seems to me atm nothing. sigh..
